Where have I been for FIVE MONTHS!!!
Here, but not here.
There, but not there.
Trudging along in life, but not really living it.
Five things Depression takes away from me, that it has no claim to:
1) Energy
2) Desire
3) Time
4) Security
5) Peace
Dragging through the muck to get them back is slow and exhausting work. But, eventually there comes a moment like sunlight through the storm when I feel a sparkle of my original mind. And then, ever so slowly those moments become a whole day full of sunshine and silver lined clouds. And then, I start to find my way out of the muck and into the random puddles with the hope that a clear shore lies ahead.
Thanks Dad, for putting it ever so perfectly, "Oh, like a wheelbarrow, you gotta push it."
I've been pushing even when the pushing didn't get me anywhere. I keep pushing because I refuse to sit down in the muck beside my wheelbarrow and sink.
Thanks to everyone for words of kindness, support, love and laughter. Thanks for helping me keep those sparks of myself alive.
I love you all dearly.
